Today, I continue where I left off in yesterday’s post, “Did Vaccines Cause My Son’s Autism ~ Part One“.
If you didn’t read that post, you’ll want to. The comments there, and on my Facebook page, are compelling – and some get a little feisty.
So we vaccinated our son–with several vaccines.
Starting sometime after his 5th birthday.
At age six, almost to the day, things changed radically in our home.
His unstoppable panic attacks and anxiety ruled our lives.
I’ll never forget the day that I knew something was really wrong.
The day that I knew our lives had changed forever.
The history–For weeks, or maybe months, our son had been developing an anxiety about his clothing being wet. He would repeatedly ask us if he could change his pants, shirt, or socks if he got even the smallest amount of water on them. It was sad to see him so distraught about it and to wonder if this obsessive questioning would ever end.
But one day we were at a business outing (for my husband’s work) and my son decided to play on the playground.
My husband and I were eating and chatting with his colleagues, when we heard a blood-curdling scream.
Running to see what had happened to him, I expected to see, well– blood.
What I found was instead, my son with wet pants.
It had been raining earlier in the week and so the ground was–very wet.
He had slid down the sliding board and into a huge puddle.
The resulting panic-stricken screaming was ear piercing and wouldn’t stop.
He was terrorized.
We left the gathering. Humiliated. Scared. Petrified. Mind spinning, heart pounding.
What was happening? What would my life become now?
No matter what we tried, it didn’t work.
Calming thoughts, praying, threatening discipline.
Nothing. The screaming and panicking continued.
The whole way home, an indescribable eeriness filled my mind and the entire car.
Something had happened to my son.
Our lives would never be the same.
The unending panic attacks continued in the months ahead.
I was on the computer daily. Nightly. Late. Very late. – looking for answers, for anything that might help.
Was it OCD? Anxiety disorder? Panic attacks? Had I done something to him? Were we just bad parents?
One night I found our answer.
I printed the diagnostic criteria for Asperger’s Syndrome off of the computer, walked over to where my husband was working and tossed the papers triumphantly (?) into his lap saying, “We’ve got our diagnosis.”
He had Asperger’s Syndrome, a form of high-functioning autism.
Three “official diagnoses” later and my suspicions were confirmed.
We went from having a child with peculiarities to being a family trapped in our home with a severely anxious and perseverating child who defied all means of discipline and behavior modification. We were truly prisoners in our own home while our son suffered from up to 30 unstoppable tantrums per day.
One of my worst memories were of the days when he would lie on the floor screaming, “Mommy, what’s wrong with me?! What is happening to me?!”
To this day I wonder –
- Did he have autism the whole time?
- Was it the vaccines that threw him over the edge?
- What if we hadn’t vaccinated?
Looking back, I think he was vulnerable. Maybe borderline autistic. And I think his vulnerabilities were triggered by the vaccines. They “threw him over the edge.”
My thoughts are that autism is a complicated ailment involving many parts of the body and many “causes” or triggers like:
- congenital issues
- toxins & heavy metals
- leaky gut / digestive issues and related dietary complications
I personally think that vaccines may not be the cause, and are not in all cases, per se, but that there is a groundwork laid for the damage and in some cases the vaccines “do the child in”–and autism happens.
In truth, I am not really anti-vaccine, but I am concerned about:
- the frequency that vaccines are looked to as a solution to a health problem (instead of more natural options)
- the amount of vaccines that are dosed (too many – do we really need a chicken pox or papilloma vaccine?)
- the dosing of vaccines in combination (done to save time and money, but the assault of multiple viruses being injected into our babies might just be too much for their fragile systems)
- adjuvants and preservatives found in vaccines (like mercury and aluminum – yes, there is still mercury in some vaccines – and aluminum isn’t something I want in me either. By the way, I am full of aluminum. And my son is full of copper and more. Here’s more info on heavy metals and how we are working to get them out of my son–and our whole family.)
Perhaps some or many children can handle vaccines, but I think that children with fragile immune systems can’t. And I think our society has gotten vaccine happy and that it is financially, and not health, motivated.
In the near future I’ll share more of what Asperger’s looks like in our family and what we’re doing to heal our son. And me.
And if you’d like to read more now about our journey with autism, you might wish to read:
- Natural Autism Therapy and the Best Treatment of All
- Natural Autism Therapy – Monster Included!
- Special Needs Children – A Sign From God
And if you’re looking for a good read on vaccines and autism-related disorders, you might want to consider the books I recommended in my first post on autism and vaccines as well as these:
Lynn Hamilton speaks from her own personal experience after her son was diagnosed with autism. This book will have you on the edge of your seat.
When we thought we were on the verge of an autism diagnosis, a sweet mom (with a grown autistic daughter) spent tons of time on the phone with me. When I asked her what I should do, the first thing she recommended was buying this book.
Another book that speaks of the possible causes of autism and remedy options is:
Together we can all help raise awareness and help heal our children. They truly need our help.
What do you think about the vaccine / autism link? What would you like to know more about?
And keep in mind–I love discussing controversial topics – let’s just keep open minds and talk kindly and seek the truth, together, OK? I reserve the right to delete comments that don’t observe common courtesy.