Did Vaccines Cause My Son’s Autism ~ Part Two

Vaccines Autism

Today, I continue where I left off in yesterday’s post, “Did Vaccines Cause My Son’s Autism ~ Part One“.

If you didn’t read that post, you’ll want to.  The comments there, and on my Facebook page, are compelling – and some get a little feisty.

So we vaccinated our son–with several vaccines.

Starting sometime after his 5th birthday.

At age six, almost to the day, things changed radically in our home.

His unstoppable panic attacks and anxiety ruled our lives.

I’ll never forget the day that I knew something was really wrong.

The day that I knew our lives had changed forever.

The history–For weeks, or maybe months, our son had been developing an anxiety about his clothing being wet. He would repeatedly ask us if he could change his pants, shirt, or socks if he got even the smallest amount of water on them. It was sad to see him so distraught about it and to wonder if this obsessive questioning would ever end.

But one day we were at a business outing (for my husband’s work) and my son decided to play on the playground.

My husband and I were eating and chatting with his colleagues, when we heard a blood-curdling scream.

Running to see what had happened to him, I expected to see, well– blood.

What I found was instead, my son with wet pants.

It had been raining earlier in the week and so the ground was–very wet.

He had slid down the sliding board and into a huge puddle.

The resulting panic-stricken screaming was ear piercing and wouldn’t stop.

He was terrorized.

We left the gathering. Humiliated. Scared. Petrified.  Mind spinning, heart pounding.  

What was happening?  What would my life become now?

No matter what we tried, it didn’t work.

Calming thoughts, praying, threatening discipline. 

Nothing.  The screaming and panicking continued.

The whole way home, an indescribable eeriness filled my mind and the entire car.

Something had happened to my son.

Our lives would never be the same.

The unending panic attacks continued in the months ahead.

I was on the computer daily. Nightly. Late. Very late. – looking for answers, for anything that might help.

Was it OCD? Anxiety disorder? Panic attacks? Had I done something to him? Were we just bad parents?

One night I found our answer.

I printed the diagnostic criteria for Asperger’s Syndrome off of the computer, walked over to where my husband was working and tossed the papers triumphantly (?) into his lap saying, “We’ve got our diagnosis.”

He had Asperger’s Syndrome, a form of high-functioning autism.

Three “official diagnoses” later and my suspicions were confirmed.

We went from having a child with peculiarities to being a family trapped in our home with a severely anxious and perseverating child who defied all means of discipline and behavior modification. We were truly prisoners in our own home while our son suffered from up to 30 unstoppable tantrums per day.

One of my worst memories were of the days when he would lie on the floor screaming, “Mommy, what’s wrong with me?! What is happening to me?!

To this day I wonder -

  • Did he have autism the whole time?
  • Was it the vaccines that threw him over the edge?
  • What if we hadn’t vaccinated?

Looking back, I think he was vulnerable.  Maybe borderline autistic.   And I think his vulnerabilities were triggered by the vaccines.  They “threw him over the edge.”

My thoughts are that autism is a complicated ailment involving many parts of the body and many “causes” or triggers like:

  • congenital issues
  • toxins & heavy metals
  • vaccines
  • leaky gut / digestive issues and related dietary complications

I personally think that vaccines may not be the cause, and are not in all cases, per se, but that there is a groundwork laid for the damage and in some cases the vaccines “do the child in”–and autism happens.

In truth, I am not really anti-vaccine, but I am concerned about:

  • the frequency that vaccines are looked to as a solution to a health problem (instead of more natural options)
  • the amount of vaccines that are dosed (too many – do we really need a chicken pox or papilloma vaccine?)
  • the dosing of vaccines in combination (done to save time and money, but the assault of multiple viruses being injected into our babies might just be too much for their fragile systems)
  • adjuvants and preservatives found in vaccines (like mercury and aluminum – yes, there is still mercury in some vaccines – and aluminum isn’t something I want in me either.  By the way, I am full of aluminum.  And my son is full of copper and more.  Here’s more info on heavy metals and how we are working to get them out of my son–and our whole family.)

Perhaps some or many children can handle vaccines, but I think that children with fragile immune systems can’t.  And I think our society has gotten vaccine happy and that it is financially, and not health, motivated.

In the near future I’ll share more of what Asperger’s looks like in our family and what we’re doing to heal our son. And me.

And if you’d like to read more now about our journey with autism, you might wish to read:

And if you’re looking for a good read on vaccines and autism-related disorders, you might want to consider the books I recommended in my first post on autism and vaccines as well as these:

Lynn Hamilton speaks from her own personal experience after her son was diagnosed with autism. This book will have you on the edge of your seat.

When we thought we were on the verge of an autism diagnosis, a sweet mom (with a grown autistic daughter) spent tons of time on the phone with me. When I asked her what I should do, the first thing she recommended was buying this book.

Another book that speaks of the possible causes of autism and remedy options is:

I have not read this entire book, but the theories in it are compelling and worth a second look.

Together we can all help raise awareness and help heal our children.  They truly need our help.

What do you think about the vaccine / autism link?  What would you like to know more about?

And keep in mind–I love discussing controversial topics – let’s just keep open minds and talk kindly and seek the truth, together, OK?  I reserve the right to delete comments that don’t observe common courtesy.

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  1. Old post but this has to be said. I could have written your story except my child was vaccinated on time… explain that? Its because anxiety CAN increase around that age… I have 3 on the spectrum and I too have pondered deeply vaccinations/autism. I have als seen more than once the HORRIFIC results of not vaccinating and for that reason would never ever even add fuel to the fire of anti vaxxers. Its not enough to say you’re not really against it. Its just not OK to add fear to parents who then may not vaccinate and then we drop below the threshold necessary for keeping these horrific illnesses away from our kids… Just my opinion.

    • I have heard that as well. Of course, something different could have been going on. I do think it’s enough to say that I am not really against it. In fact, I am considering some vaxs for my 2nd child now. I just don’t know. It’s a real conundrum. I have a local acquaintance whose child died after a vaccine. no question there. Temple Grandin, the most famous autistic in the US (the world??) says no vaccine studies w/ causation of autism have been properly done. ever.

      I guess the other thing that makes me wonder is….why are all the vaccinated parents worried about the unvaxxed if they think the vaccines work so well? Why are they upset?

      Also, I think some folks handle vax fine. Just like some handle gluten fine. We are all different and more and more our bodies can’t handle it. That is my opinion. The onslaught against the immune systems is too much and more and more it will continue to be so. Still, I don’t know.

      I think there are too many vaccines and too many at one time. I wish the DTaP would be broken out always. That is my opinion. I think it’s good to think and i have many more stories to share to get my readers to think. And question. Thanks :).

  2. Thank you for this article. You’ve laid out what I’ve been trying to explain to people who insist it was because I vaccinated that my son has autism. Except, we had signs of issues from birth (and before, if that’s possible! :P) I have autism. My husband probably has autism. I don’t think these were caused by vaccines although I believe it might be part of it for some children. I think there are many paths up and around the mountain of Autism. In our case it’s likely genetic and diet/food production related (exacerbated). As for cures – well, I’m just me. Asperger’s is part of who I am. I can’t imagine taking a whole part of me, or my son, and taking it away. However I know that isn’t the case for a lot of people. I just wish people would stop implying that the world would be better if I wasn’t in it.

    • Thanks for your thoughtful comment. Do you mean folks saying that about autistics in general? I sure hope no one has said that to your face.

  3. Charity says:

    I had never given a second thought to vaccines either until my firstborn got her 2 month vaccines. She had already had reflux issues, but they seemed to get dramatically worse after the shots. At first, we delayed vaccinations until we were able to get her reflux under control, but after hubs and I did a lot of research, we decided to wait on them altogether. She didn’t have any vaccines until she was 2, and after that she only got one per visit. So far, she seems to be doing just fine. Our youngest daughter is now almost 9 months old and has not had a single vaccination. We will probably wait until she’s 18-24 months before we begin hers as well. I agree with you about the Chicken Pox and HPV vaccines. Why do we need them? We’ve outright said no to them as well as Hep B and A (which I received as an adult before traveling to a 3rd world country, incidentally). I think you are probably right that some kids have a harder time with them than others, just as some have more allergies, or are more prone to illness. I guess I just get so tired of the scare tactics that are out there to try to force parents like us to go with the flow, for the sake of the community. There is an assumption that parents like us make this decision on a whim and have not done research, or somehow do not have the best interest of our children at heart. Anyway, thanks for sharing your story! Best wishes!

  4. I have such a hard time with this topic. I’ve read every comment (both from readers and the writer) and realize I am going to be the odd woman out here. I’ve noticed even the most eloquent responses, when contesting the overall support this post/comment thread gives to vaccinations causing autism, are met with a bit of negative resistance. Be kind and know I respect you all very much, regardless of how much I disagree with your choices.

    My kids are both vaccinated according to my pediatrician’s standard vaccination schedule. Neither have autism. I’m sure that alone will push some to stop reading as I can admittedly say I have no idea what it is like to watch your child develop autistic behaviors. My heart shudders at the thought and goes out to all you strong mamas who’ve overcome the insurmountable struggles that come with such a diagnosis.

    That being said, I am angry…and this anger comes from fear. I, like you all, love my kids. I want my kids to be healthy, just like you do. I do not want my kids exposed to eradicated diseases any more than you want your kids to struggle with autism. I have also done my research….checked the facts….learned from studies done by those in other countries, by people who aren’t affected by US governmental regulation. A very eye-pleasing, dumbed-down version of what I have found is reflected pretty nicely in this infographic: http://www.upworthy.com/it-took-studying-25782500-kids-to-begin-to-undo-the-damage-caused-by-1-doctor?g=3&c=ufb1

    I beg you, please don’t put a population (read – my kids) at risk of terrible, horrific, contagious, life-threatening disease because you are searching for answers. We are all free to execute our rights to parenting – but hear me out:

    While my choice to vaccinate my kids doesn’t affect your kids at all, your choice to not vaccinate absolutely affects mine.

    This is a desperate mother’s plea to please look at the facts and see there is so much more good than bad, so much more benefit than detriment, so much more LIFE than death. Please don’t put my kids at risk – I beg you, from the bottom of my heart, mom to mom.


    • Hi Jen. I am sorry for not responding sooner – I sometimes need time to read over comments and think about what I think. I hear what you are saying but wonder about a lot of things. For example, why would vaccinated kids be at risk from unvaccinated if the vaccines work? Also, I am not completely anti vaccine, but I do think that there are way too many vaccines being doled out and too many at one time.

      I would love to hear what you think about that. Thanks much for joining in.

  5. tree peters says:

    I’m inclined to believe that it is the issue of vaccines pushing more sensitive or vulnerable children “over the edge” as you say. So, yes, it’s possible that vaccines don’t cause autism or other injury, but it’s still probably vaccines that cause the reaction that leads to it.
    I’ve also been so frustrated that there have to be two sides to this. Why not work together? If the pro-vaccine scientific community could just admit to/ acknowledge the issue exists then we could all start figuring out how to make vaccines safer. Pre-screen kids, etc… And then we might all feel comfortable with the process.
    I’ve come to the conclusion that at the highest levels they do know there is a problem but that a decision has been made that “for the greater good” some kids having vaccine injuries is an acceptable loss. Of course no one can admit to that, so they do what they do with data and holding the ridiculous hard line even in the face of story after story that shows a direct vaccine to injury result.
    It just feels like there are those in power who think they know what’s best for everyone. I don’t exactly envision them twirling their evil mustaches, but…. when it comes to pharmaceutical companies and those who profit from them, well, maybe I do.
    My 7 year old daughter is not vaccinated. I have felt torn up about this and sometimes downright terrified. I’m scared to do it and scared not to do it. I keep opting not to. And now that she’s older and her immune system is more developed, we were considering starting her on a modified schedule. But suddenly there are doctors jumping ship and admitting to falsifying data. I’m wondering if more will follow and a house of cards will fall. It may still be that there is a place for vaccines but I can’t trust any doctor who tells me there is absolutely no danger.
    One last thing… I believe that homeopathy might be helpful for a child that has had a reaction to vaccines. There are homeopathic remedies for the vaccines themselves. I, for sure, would try it if anything happened with my daughter. Pretty much nothing to lose.
    Thank you for talking about this!

    • I completely agree with you. I have heard of other things that supposedly help w/ vaccines reactions but I haven’t taken a close look at them. You are a sharp thinker. I hope to see you around again.
      Thank you.

  6. Our family has been searching years now for answers to my daughter’s health issues. They have been mounting up for years and finally about 8 months ago we started finding some answers. She has suffered stomach issues for years, anxiety, declining energy (and now has full-blown cfs), and debilitating headaches. We have found she has food sensitivities and autoimmune Hashimoto’s from Leaky Gut. She also has mercury poisoning which we will need to start addressing when we get her body supported a little more (working on that). I would love to know more about how you detoxed mercury – which I totally believe, in our case, that vaccines have played a big part in overloading her body’s abilities. I am not against vaccines, but I do believe that people should be made aware of the possibilities of issues AND I believe that we need to modify how many and when vaccines are given. Thank you for sharing your story and for bringing this issues out for discussion!

  7. Hi Adrienne,
    My name is Sarah and I am a sophomore in High school. As a child I was never vaccinated and that is probably the reason I have such an interest in this topic. I am writing a research paper currently about the controversy of Autism being linked to vaccinations. I loved your story and I would love to use it in the introduction of my paper, if that is okay with you of course. I would love to get a little bit more information if I can use it in my paper. Please respond to this comment with an answer, and if you are okay with me using it can you email me at sarahhuszar@comcast.net so I can ask you a few questions? thanks for posting your story